So I just uploaded the last pictures I took of Hailey to facebook...(sigh)...that was hard. They were taken January 5, 2010 on her 5 week birthday, which was also the day before she passed away.
As the number of days increase from when she passed away, the harder it seems to get. I have less and less to do that involves her, and I have to try to transition back to "normal" life - whatever that is...but I know that it doesn't include her anymore. :( That's one of the reasons this blog is so helpful to me - because it's kind of like the one thing I can hold onto that has to do with her.
I know that when people in my life have lost loved ones - like my grandma losing my grandpa or my friend losing her dad, etc. - that I've been afraid to bring up the person they lost to them because I don't want to make them sad. I know that many people feel afraid to broach the subject of someone who has passed away because they don't want to make anyone's grief come back, etc. But for me on the other side now, I LOVE talking about Hailey. My fear is not that someone will bring her up and make me sad, my fear is that no one will bring her up and I'll never get to talk about her again...
So by all means, if you're reading this and want to talk to me about Hailey, please DO! I really can't say it enough - I LOVE talking about her and remembering her...
You can talk about her to me whenever you want!!! And that's just what we'll do tomorrow :)
ReplyDeleteWords do not come as easily for me as they do for you Krissy. You know any day of the year you can talk about Hailey with me. I will cry with you and rejoice with you. I miss my 27 days with her greatly.
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