Instead of taking pictures of her and marveling over her accomplishments, I sit and wonder what she'd look like. And I can't. I can't imagine her.
Over the weekend my husband and I were in a store doing some last minute shopping for our costumes, and we ran into a little boy (almost literally) in one of the aisles. He was probably about two years old, and his face reminded me so much of Hailey's with it's tiny little features. He was so cute. He made my heart smile. Even though he was a little boy, the encounter gave me a glimpse into what Hailey might have looked as a toddler.
And today instead of sharing pictures of and stories about her first costume and first Halloween/ fall-related adventures like other moms, I sit and miss her and do what I can in memory of her.
Today I spent most of the day working on various tasks for Hailey's Hope. I went to the store and bought the remainder of items I need to fill 25 basic NICU bags so that I can get a head start on our delivery (which is one month from today)!
Have I mentioned lately that I'm very thankful to have Hailey's Hope? Because I am. It definitely gives me reason to feel good on days where everything else might tell me to feel sad.
So instead of going shopping for a gift or clothes or something for Hailey like I probably would have been doing if she were still with us, today I went shopping in memory of her and because of her, and it filled a little void in my heart.
And on that related note, today marks one month until our special delivery on Hailey's 1st birthday, December 1st. Just to remind you, our goal is to donate 50 basic NICU gift bags (they will be given to families as they arrive in the NICU with their babies) and 10 "angel" memory boxes (they will be given to parents whose babies lose their battle in the NICU). I'm so happy with all of the support and donations we've received so far. Thanks to two very large monetary donations and all of the smaller donations we've received, I'm very confident that we will be able to reach this special, huge goal I set for Hailey's Hope.
If you haven't donated yet you still can! If you'd like your donation to count towards this special delivery, I'm requesting that it arrives to me by November 15th so that I have plenty of time to finish filling the bags. If you still want to donate and aren't sure when you can, I just want to remind you that we will continue to do what we do! This isn't a one time thing or just for this year. This is a permanent project that I will run for as many years as God leads me to!
Here's a little preview of our bags so far - tonight I filled 19 bags (minus their finish touches including labels and cards):
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