38 Weeks Update

How far along: 38 weeks

(Selfie taken a couple of days ago.)

Baby Size: Books say he might be the size of a pumpkin (6-7lbs, 18-20 in).

In other related news, at my last appointment my midwife thinks he is head down but "sunny side up" - which is not the best position for me me during labor so I'm doing some exercises to try to rotate him. I personally think he keeps trying to wiggle his body in any position he chooses no matter how difficult. We'll see how he ends up!

Stretch marks: Still there being stretched. Growing itchy.

Sleep: Not much due to increased itching and my inability to get comfortable. 

Best moment this week: Too many to choose. We celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary on July 6th (over a week ago) and enjoyed a fancy dinner and carriage ride around Nashville. Lately I've just been soaking up the time as we relax and have fun together as a family. Isaac's been really cute talking more and more about Isaiah and asking questions about him. 

Looking forward to: My next appointment with my midwives (next week) and seeing if I'm progressing at all. And for my mom coming next week. 

What I miss:  Sleeping on my stomach... and not itching. :P

Movement: Same as last time I posted. Some big pokes and jabs. Feels like they are decreasing a bit, but every time I start to feel worry creep up on me, he will get moving.

Food cravings: Root beer float (craving met). Cheese pizza (craving not met, starting to miss dairy).

Labor Signs: None ? :(  Maybe a random practice contraction every now and then. I once thought he'd come early, now I feel he's going to stay put awhile. Who knows but God. 

Symptoms: Fatigue, itching

Wedding rings on or off? Seem to be mostly off these days. Boo.

Mood: Feeling mostly content still, but also starting to feel more anxiety over an array of things from going into labor before family comes to help with Isaac to labor itself to how Isaac will adjust. And fears are coming forward over something being wrong with him, him not making it home, losing him like we lost Hailey, etc. Not a fun battle. 

I came across this post today and felt I could have written it. Many similarities (other than the migraines). In some ways it's comforting to know I'm not the only one on this type of journey: http://stillstandingmag.com/2014/07/underlying-fear-pregnancy-loss/