My 2nd Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance

Today, October 15th, has been nationally recognized as Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day.

Last year was the first time I became aware of this day and participated in it in memory of Hailey. We had a wonderful time remembering her and celebrating our daughter as well as helping others remember their babies. You can read about it here (and I hope that you do!).

Today is my second time recognizing this day and remembering Hailey and the other babies I know who have left us too soon.

Unfortunately we were unable to find any events in our area to attend and with Isaac we were unable to arrange anything ourselves.

However, today we went on our own little family walk in some beautiful fall weather. We went to the Greenway, this beautiful walking path in our area, and Josh walked Opie and I pushed Isaac in the stroller (to start). We walked a little farther than Isaac could stand so he got a bit fussy; we ended the walk with me walking Opie and pushing the stroller and Josh carrying Isaac. :) I wore my t-shirt from last year's walk that we participated in.

And tonight in about 30 minutes we will participate in the event that takes place around the world at 7pm wherever you are known as the Wave of Light. At 7pm we will light a candle for Hailey. I will light the same one I bought last year just for this occasion. It has what has become my life verse on it which is because of my daughter. It's a reminder of her and of God and all that He's done and will do.

Of course if I ever take a true moment to be still and silent and remember my daughter, it's filled with emotions, the strange mixture of joy and sorrow. Today I haven't had a moment to myself to do that yet, but I've still thought of her a little extra today and feel full of God's peace. I think her "rainbow" brother is helping to further heal my heart in a unique way that I'll try to write about some day.

I've stolen a moment at the computer to write this blog while Hailey's brother naps on his napping daddy's chest. But I know this moment will be short and Isaac will awaken before I know it so I need to wrap this up.

Thank you to everyone who has remembered Hailey and isn't afraid to mention her name. Your support means the world and also helps soothe my broken heart.

Praying for peace for all the families out there remembering their babies. May you find hope and joy as you trust in God with what you're enduring. (Rm. 15:13)

Part of Me…
I thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday and the day before that too.
I think of you in silence. I often say your name.
But all I have are memories and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake, with which I’ll never part.
God has you in His keeping. I have you in my heart.
I shed tears for what might have been. A million times I’ve cried.
If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly. In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place, no one can ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn’t go alone.
For part of me went with you, the day God took you home.
-Author unknown

 

Love you baby girl! Jesus give her extra squeezes and snuggles and kisses from me today!